She gave him her heart but he shattered it

YESTERDAY :

The only thing I can remember is taking bus home with Miss Kang.

Talked to her about loads of stuff, she's really awesome! I can really talk to her like as though she's my friend :D

TODAY :

Nothing much happened, physically.

Went to Yishun to collect a dress I ordered online. I wore my new 3.5 inch heels there.

Okay I totally regretted when I reached Toa Payoh MRT station, my feets were like freaking pain and the heels were like ' biting ' my ankle. I was like swearing in my heart -.-


Then my mum was at home, and I didn't want her to know that I bought stuffs online, again. So I walked around Toa payoh central n times.


Stupid decision right! I should have sat inside Coffee Bean and get myself a nice cup of Iced Double Pure Chocolate.


While I was walking, I kept on chanting to myself " Wearing heels now can train myself for the future, I have to wear heels when I work, jiayou jiayou jiayou! "


Went to the library in the end, 'cause the weather was horrible.

Oh, when I was about to check out my magazines at the machines, there were super many aunties and little children running about and taking their own sweet time. So I got extremely fedup and cursed all the aunties and climbed to the 2nd floor in my heels.


I walked like a handicapped and desperately held on to the handrail. Yeah I got many stares -.- 30 seconds of fame.


Went home and when I took off my heels, I really felt damn damn damn happy. Even happier than the time when I got my dress.


Watched Boys Over Flowers for the rest of the afternoon and evening.


Then yeah, found out something at night.... Broke down and talked to best friend about it after I calmed down.


Yeah, she managed to make me laugh with Gujunpyo's famous classic line. Hee. Heart her like crazyyyyy.


Broke down again after awhile when I heard some songs. I'm really a drama queen. I bet you are wondering how a normal human being can produce so much tears right -.-


Well ... It'll be hard to just forget 'bout everything in just a night, but yeah, I have to.


( The following parts could cause confusion if you are not one of the people I share my troubles with. Skip this if you kind of dislike me/ think I'm a drama queen ) Scroll down until you see the next sentence in red, tyvm.


I was thinking 'bout the times when I told jiayi/doreen that I talked to him on the phone, and I'll be like smiling like as if someone had just given me 1 million bucks. I'll go like " :D :D :D You know yesterday I finally talked to xxx!!!! :D " & My mood for that day will be super kickass good. & Doreen will roll her eyes like crazy -.-


Seriously, ask the two of them and you'll know how crazy I can be. & most of the time when I talk to Cheryl, it'll be about him.

( First time I'm being so honest on my blog huh? I'm a good blogger okay! Hee )


But after that, there'll be something he'll do/say that will make me running to my girls and asking them " Are you free now? I'm dying " & I'll suddenly break down into tears. I'll be like " * sobs * You know * out of breath * he... he... * sobs and out of breath * T-T "


If you look at my previous posts, there are numbers at the bottom of every post. Well, if you're wondering, its the number of days since he gave up.

For the past 32 days, it wasn't pleasant. I wrote on my handbook " 27 days... " " 28 days.... " " 30 days/ 1 month :( " Yeah I'm sure Jiayi knows about it.

I kept myself as occupied as possible, be it watching shows, paying attention in class or sleeping.

People who are close to me will know that I sleep hell loads. Most of them think that I'm being very lazy. Actually its a way for me to escape from everything.


When I'm sleeping, I can just dream about the stuffs I want to happen, I can be the happiest person ever in that few hours. ( Sounds cliche, but its true for me )


When I'm under stress or when my mood isn't good at all, I'll sleep alot. Like 4 hours every afternoon? ( I sound like I have issues man )

& At the beginning of the first few days of the 32 days, I kept on freaking yq out when I suddenly burst into tears. Hah he is quite a good love adviser, seriously. Its good to hear things in a guy's point of view.

Don't misunderstand, I'm not a playgirl, we're just hao peng you(s) that knows we're not each other's cup of tea/coffee/double pure iced chocolate/ milo/ iced lemon tea.

I just don't know how I should feel anymore. I kept on convincing myself to get over him, but part of me just refused. When I wanted to hang on, images of someone's blog just came into my mind, and I'll feel like as though I'm dying once more.

& Maybe I have to give up 'cause what we feel towards each other is totally different.

( Okay you can continue reading from here ) [ PS : I knew you still read the above texts right. -.- ]


2 daiyangtian activities tomorrow. Yay x 100!

& I just found Red Cliff video. Yay x 10000!

I'm off to continue watching Boys Over Flowers. Doreen finished it already, SUPER FAST CAN.

Phew, this must be my most honest post ever.


x;

Don't know if I should write anything here.